For the past few days, I have been struggling with bad flu. You know the story, don’t you? A man and the flu do not mix well. Women over the centuries have learned that flu is but a nuisance yet the homework still needs to be done. Men on the other hand view it as a biblical plaque. They thought that it is the end of the world. I am somewhat a modern man and I do live alone – so the chores reluctantly were done. But venturing beyond home was for most of the time beyond my strength. Today was a first day much better. On the mend, so to speak. Cold but absolutely, stunningly beautiful. I knew the sunset is going to be spectacular and I ached to go and see my sea. Not only the Channel in front of my home, but the actual open ocean: to hear its song, to marvel at its might.
In 2020 I wrote poem to the Ocean. At the end of it, the ocean invites me and says:
I will offer you a lazurite scale armor,
a long shawl in dark green,
as my wedding gift.
Went to the very end of the road past Fisherman’s Cove, right in front off the aptly named Devil’s Island. There is nowhere to go from there but to marvel. Last time I went there was sometime in December last year with my Damian, who came from Poland to stay with me after John’s passing. I don’t remember much about that December. If not for this good soul, who came to look after me … well, I have no idea how I would have survived. But one cold, wintery day I took him there, to that spot. We watched the furry of the ocean that tossed huge rocks like pebbles on the road.
Today was the orgy of red, orange fires between the sea and the sky. Almost kitsch, almost vulgar. Almost – but Nature never cared much about our delicate bourgeois sensibilities.
Dni straszne nadchodzą. Dni zderzenia się z ciągle odrzucaną rzeczywistością odejścia, rozłąki. Niebytu. Ciebie. Mnie bez Ciebie. Czasu, który na zawsze rozdzielił moje życie na przed i po. Pojechałem tam, gdzie byłem w tych dniach niemożliwych do zrozumienia z Damianem, który przyjechał z Polski ze mną być. Młody człowiek, któremu ja miałem być opoką niewzruszoną, który nie mógł wiedzieć, co w chwilach takich robić należy. Ale był. A nikt nie wie. Ani młody, ani stary. Wiedzą tylko poeci i wariaci. Nikt wtedy też poetów nie czyta, a wariatów nie słucha. Tak nas uczono przez setki lat. Zagryź wargę i idź. Idź gdzie? Wszystkie drogi prowadzą wówczas do nikąd.
Więc pojechałem tą samą drogą, tym samym samochodem, jak tamtego dnia z moim chłopcem z Polski, w dokładnie to samo miejsce. Patrzeć na ocean. Słuchać oceanu. Przy brzegu Diabelskiej Wyspy. Ocean rozumie. Jest wszechpotężny. Wycisza wszystko. Jak w w moim wierszu napisanym wiele lat wcześniej, w 2020. Bardzo mi to dziś pomogło.
OceanPatrzę na ciebie, żywa wodo nasza
w wiecznym ruchu, nigdy nie uśpiona.
I tak czasem bywa, że ty, jak tafla
jesteś, jak wielka szyba okna Ziemi.
Jak śpiąca Afrodyta rozmarzona.
Ale ty nawet wówczas drżysz, wznosisz się,
twój oddech jest wilgotny, gdy tuli brzeg.
Gdy budzisz się w czas, muskularna, naga,
grzywacze w rydwanie gnasz przez zatoki,
cieśniny, zdobywasz fiordy, usta rzek.
Mierzysz się z czasem, chcesz go cofnąć, wrócić,
pokryć ciężkim, lepkim płaszczem doliny, góry,
które były pałacem pełnym krużganków,
obszernych komnat z tańcami, muzyką głębi,
odbijających słońce, gwiazdy, księżyc, chmury.
Zawsze gdy wchodzę w twe podwoje, zanurzam się
w tym życiodajnym płynie macierzyńskiego łona.
Otulasz mnie czule, mruczysz bezsłownie: wnijdź,
nie bój się, mam tyle przestrzeni wolnej, twojej.
Podaruję ci płaszcz z łuski niebieskiej,
utkam długi szal zielony,
jak welon weselny.
The last two days in Halifax – just before the incoming storm of a dying hurricane – were gorgeous. More like late September than the end of November. I had such plans for them! Two days of ‘Indian summer’ during my days off! Lucky me, I thought. But not so much. Having avoided probably close to three years any cold or flu – I got it now. With chills, and fever. Everybody knows that for a man a flu or cold is worse than any other plaque known to humanity. The bottomless pot of self-pity, LOL. But despite that, I gathered all the remnants of my heroism and packed my camera, and small bottle of Advil and went to a small but wonderful and little-known park between the end of Halifax and the beginning of Bedford – the Sea View Park, just above Africville. Enjoy the views.
Druga połowa listopada, tuż przed nadchodzącymi z Florydy resztkami tropikalnego huraganu, przyniosła nagle cudowne dwa dni ‘babiego lata’. Dni, które miałem wolne! Ba, fatum złośliwe powaliło mnie z nóg. Spotkała mnie straszna dla każdego szanującego się bohaterskiego mężczyzny biblijna plaga przeziębienia lub grypy. Mimo to, nadludzkim wysiłkiem podobnym do dzieł greckich herosów, popołudniem zebrałem w torbę kamerę, buteleczkę aspiryny, wsiadłem na mojego czarnego uskrzydlonego pegaza i popędziłem do mało znanego zakątku w pogonii za zachodzącym słońcem i w powitaniu nadchodzącego księżyca. W małym parku na granicy między Halifaksem a Bedford.
My previous biking took me across the salt marshes from Colle Harbour toward Lawrencetown. Today I continued it starting from West Lawrenscetown. It is called Atlantic View Trail. But it is also a part of a national bikeway through the entire country, starting on Vancouver Island in BC. Having drove from one coast to the other, now I can say that I also biked through both ends of the Trail: in Vancouver Island and Lower Mainland of BC and now in Nova Scotia.
That was a very strange night. I watched some TV, and couldn’t watch any more news, as the stories from Gaza were just so depressing. Watched some Netflix movie about some Argentinian young fashion megastar. It was tiring just by the speed of the movie-documentary, him being like high on something nonstop, all the time. Somehow I started talking to You. Was sad and happy at the same time. Sad for obvious reasons, happy because we talked. Told you that life is like that now, like this movie on speed. I rush to do things, and have to be busy all the time. Just to avoid life. The reality. Sort of: not now, please. I’m busy. Will talk about it later. I have to finish this, that; have to run, have to drive somewhere.
Avoiding. Not being irrational but not willing to deal with reality, either.
Went to bed about midnight saying that I had to get up about 5 am to drive to a bike trail in the middle of a forest near West Lawrencetown to catch with my camera the sunrise over the ocean. But the night was strangely hot, couldn’t fall asleep even with a wide-open window. Then a train started going back and forth near my building with a terrible noise of the train breaking and smashing of the train cars as they moved and stopped. Went back to the living room, switched the TV back on, and watched some more of something. You were nowhere to be seen or heard and couldn’t continue our conversation. Made a decision to drive to that spot in the forest about 6 AM. Finally felt tired and sleepy. Before I knew I was asleep. And didn’t get up till 8 AM! Sunrise was gone an hour earlier. But did go for the bike ride anyway. Remembering the night I dressed warmly but very lightly. Took even a towel and an extra pair of underwear in case I decided to take a swim. Started biking at about 10 AM. And instantly knew that I wasn’t dressed as I should. It was freezing! And icy wind that went through my clothing. Swimming in the waves was out of the question when I got to the beach. If I drove by car I probably would – and warm in the car after swimming. But getting on the bike and biking back easily 10-15 km to where I parked would probably turn me into an icicle, LOL.
Rozmawiałem z Tobą cały wieczór i potem pół nocy chyba. A miałem plany wycieczki rowerowej wzdłuż jezior i brzegu oceanu wczesnym rankiem by uchwycić wschodzące słońce nad Atlantykiem. Ze wschodu wyszły nici. Gdy w końcu dwu lub trzygodzinną drzemkę złapałem – obudziłem się już o ósmej rano. Dawno po wschodzie. Mimo to pojechałem w las, do tej trasy. Noc była nadzwyczajnie ciepłą, jak na tę porę roku. Ale dzień odwrotnie – więc ubrałem się bardzo nie odpowiednio, zbyt lekko. Mimo marznięcia – trasę rowerowa, tak jak zaplanowałem, tak przejechałem. Widoki piękne, surowe, zimowe już (choć bez śniegu) mają też swój specyficzny urok surowego piękna. Lato to barok natury, a zima to styl romański północnej Europy.
Czy ta wycieczka była moją ucieczką od rozmów z Tobą? Od zajęcia się rzeczywistością? Nie wiem, Kochanie. Wydaje mi się, że tym razem nie masz racji mówiąc, że życie trwa nadal i powinienem zacząć znowu starać się żyć. Wrócić do świata realnego. Może te życie, które prowadzę, te nasze rozmowy, moje poszukiwania Ciebie na plażach oceanu, jezior – to właśnie moja nowa realność, rzeczywistość? Nie jakaś dziwna ucieczka od niej, a przeciwnie – akceptacja jej. Widzisz, kiedy jestem wśród ludzi, rozmawiam z nimi, dyskutuję – Ty w tym tłumie , pośród nich znikasz, przestajesz być. Ale gdy wędruję po plażach, nawet po ulicach ale samotnie, gdy łażę po skałach – Ty jesteś obok. Przy mnie. A ja lubię mieć Cię przy sobie. Ty chyba też lubisz, gdy jestem obok.
Pojechałem do Ciebie, do nas – na nasz ostatni przystanek ostatniej wycieczki za miasto. Do słonych bagnisk Cole Harbour. Widzę Twoją twarz, Twój zmęczony uśmiech. Twój skrywany żal. Bo Ty już wiedziałeś lepiej niż ja, jak krótki czas przed nami. Wszystko bym dał, życie z radością, by jeszcze dotknąć Twojej twarzy, jeszcze palce we włosy Twoje włożyć, przytulić na moment. Ten moment byłby warty wszystko właśnie, każdy dzień kolejny i każdy rok samotności.
The words of love
are difficult
they escape description
of dictionaries
of synonyms
of thesauruses
Her language
are smells,
touches, syllables.
They are screams
of grief,
they are exclamations
of tears.
They avoid punctuation marks,
because they lack
a moment to stop,
to rest.
Love is a movement,
a hurried run.
She is aggressive,
demanding,
or submissive impatiently.
Even when she sleeps –
Her breathing is
expecting you.
That is why when I call you –
I scream or I cry.
And most often when I call you –
I am silent.
Tak i dzisiejsza, późnym popołudniem w dzień pochmurny, wycieczka rowerowa, zabrała mnie na trasę groblą przez te bagniska hen, aż do Lawrencetown. Miałem czas na nasze bezsłowne rozmowy. Na fotograficzny zapis tych urokliwych jakimś smutnym urokiem, miejsc. Rozlewiska słonej wody oceanu mają inną florę i faunę niż jeziora słodkowodne. Mają zdecydowanie inny zapach.
I went today to meet you at our last drive outside the city boundaries. I saw your face again, your sad smile. I recognized your attempt to cover from me your sorrow. Your sorrow because you knew already better than me the shortness of time remained for us. And I screamed in silence, I cried. Wanted to touch your face, feel your hair between my fingers, caress you…. Nothing, nothing ever can be truly joyful and fully happy in my life. My future seems to be like a life wasted, effort unnecessary.
And today’s bike ride on the dyke, through the marshes to Lawrencetown was somehow close to my thoughts. The colours, smells, even the fauna and flora of salt marshes are very different from those of fresh water lakes. Everything is dimmed somehow, austere. So was the time of day – late afternoon, greyish, cool weather.
About the year 741, Pope Gregory III decided that the 1st of November would be the day of special prayer and observance of all good Christians, who died and were admitted to Heaven. It is the Day of All Saints. Earlier that ritual was observed around the Good Friday prayers. The ancient and still existing Chaldean Church still does it at that time.
In Poland, over the centuries this observance became a very important and popular movement. Still is. I remember it very well and rather fondly when as a child I would accompany my parents on these pilgrimages to cemeteries, where anyone from our family was buried. The cemeteries at these two days (2 of November is actually the day to remember all good Christians, who – after death – were admitted to heaven. The first of November is reserved only for the remembrance of the Saints of the Church) are still as busy as sports stadiums during important events. There are special buses and extra trains to take thousands of people to the gates of the cemetery. Going by car could be risky as nobody knows where you will find a spot to park. It is also a huge business. Visitors have to buy flower arrangements, special candles, and other paraphernalia appropriate for that occasion.
I have never known that it is actually only for dead Christians. Would not be surprised if most Poles did not know that. It became a part of our national folklore. I always remember that day even in Canada. For more than forty years. Always at least a moment of somber thought, of remembering. With age – I too have lost people in Canada, who were close: friends, with time family members. Since we came to Nova Scotia I used to go every November 1st to Pictou, to light a candle and lay some flowers at the grave of my parents-in-law, Leona and Doug. I left the Church a long time ago but that observance is still important to me. It is paying respect to those you have loved or respected. In one form or another Fall was always part of such remembering for many nations and people well before Christianization. It is somehow part of our humanity. From time immemorial.
Will not be able to go tomorrow, as I work (in Poland it is a National Holiday, after all, you could have more than one cemetery to visit, often in different cities) but I will be going there at least once in the last week of November. Within one year I have buried there, on my parents-in-low plot, two people. First, something I still have not come to terms with – I laid to rest the ashes of my Love, my Life, my Air to breathe, my dear husband, John. At the grave site, I stood with his siblings: a sister and two brothers, who came from Calgary. Now, almost a year later I stood there again, next to my sister-in-law and only one brother-in-law. The other one we were saying our last goodbye to. The sadness is hard to describe.
Today in Halifax was a nice day. Rather cold but sunny weather. Decided to visit special places in this city. Places full of someone’s memories, full of sad but often beautiful memories, of love that was, friendship that flourished. Very important people, perhaps national heroes, maybe well-known personalities, and a lot of ordinary people, some gone a long time ago, some with no family left, who would visit them. Our cemeteries. Went to the famous one with Titanic’s small graves (Fairview Lawn Cemetery) and the huge cemetery downtown, next to the Public Gardens (Camp Hill Cemetery).
And one more cemetery, a special one for me. In my Old Country, there are a lot of empty old cemeteries. There are full of old graves, some with strange lettering on tombstones. But almost never any people walking, visiting. You see, for about seven hundred years Poland was home to the largest Jewish community in all of Europe. They escaped persecution in other European countries and settled in the old Polish Kingdom. For seven hundred years. That’s a long time. Until the 2nd world war and Hitler. And they disappear. The living ones – the cemeteries remained. On my numerous visits from Canada to Poland, I always liked to go to these cemeteries. There was such a sad silence in them. But that silence spoke to me loudly. That silence begged to remember. Reminded me of the powerful ‘Never again” wish that humanity had after that war. I remembered that next to Fairview Cemetery there was a small old Jewish cemetery. Still is. Fenced and the gate closed. And empty like the ones in Poland. No one visiting. I went there. Found a spot on the embankment where the fence was missing and went there.
Somehow it felt familiar, it felt good to be there. The same Hebrew alphabet on, familiar names (in Latin). The familiar way of putting stones on the top of the grave (I don’t know the origins or meaning of it, but they do it the same way as we put flowers on our graves). I am glad I did.
But the ‘never again’ did not last, sadly. Wars and killings, even massacres continue. Even as I write these words. Humans are such strange creatures. Capable of goodness and sacrifice beyond belief, of love great and soaring. Capable of evil incarnate and hate incomprehensible.
Here is a story of Halifax, the story of Nova Scotia, and a story of Canada that is written on these cemeteries. As you read the names (although in the old cemeteries in Nova Scotia majority is of Scottish descent) precisely because it is Canada – the story of the world.
Couldn’t help myself. The wind is already rather cold – but the sunshine in full splendor. Camera and a folding chair in hand and off we go to Conrad Beach. Few people thought the same, fact that it was Saturday helped them to avail themselves of the orgy of colours, light, sea, and sky. Don’t forget the smells so different away from the city! None of them indeed ventured for a swim as the waves were wilder today and the wind almost chilling. But try to take me to a beach on a sunny day and tell me I can’t either! No chance, LOL. Actually, I think that exactly because the air was chilly – the water didn’t feel like a shock to the body. The crushing waves did not charge any extra fee for a wonderful back and chest massage! It truly was invirogating. On the way back a short trip to meadows and glory of fall.
Kiedy już wydawało się, że moje plażowanie tegoroczne się zakończyło – jeszcze jeden prezent od jesiennego słońca i kolejna wycieczka na plażę. Słońce, woda, piasek pod nogami, huk rozbijajaczych się bałwanów morskich, w dali za naturalnym skalistym falochronem, kolorowe żagle surferów. Jak nie pobiec w ten żywioł, nie pływać w tych grzywaczach? Niby nikt inny tego nie robił, ale też nikt palcem mnie nie wytykał i w czoło się nie stukał, LOL. Ostatecznie – wolny kraj, LOL. Spotkałem też konkurenta fotografowania tych cudów Natury. Jak na porządnego zawodowca przystało był porządnie ubrany w buty z cholewami, długie spodnie i ciepłą kurtkę. Ubogiego amatora jak mnie, na takie luksusy nie stać.
The Weather folks say it will snow in two day’s time. I like white beaches. But I do mean white sand beaches, snow I prefer on skiing slopes.
My Rocks, as my regular Readers would know, is a stretch of rocky shore alongside the Bedford Basin. The Basin and the Channel leading to it separate Dartmouth and Halifax. As I live almost on that shore – it is a place of my many walks, writings, picture-taking. But most of it – it is my Garden Of Sanity, where I seek peace, solace. In the world but outside of the world at the same time. You would occasionally meet one or two other people wandering there, but most of the time it is just me.
Uciekłem na Moje Kamienie. Miejsce szukania wyciszenia, spokoju. Często początku zapisywanych w kajecie wierszy, felietonów, esejów. Nade wszystko jednak ucieczki przed światem. Lub ściślej – światem ludzi. Niewyobrażalna, na mityczną skalę tragedia palestyńska w Gazie – efekt morderczego i niewyobrażalnego mordu terrorystycznej grupy Hamas na mieszkańcach kibucu graniczącego z palestyńską Gazą – obudziła w wielu niezrozumiałe dla mnie uczucia i emocje, których zrozumieć nie mogę.
Po tym morderczym napadzie, Izrael wydał totalną wojne Palestyńczykom w Gazie. W tej totalnej wojnie (de facto to nie wojna a masowe oblężenie i pełny nieustanny ostrzał artyleryjski, powietrzny i rakietowy, pełne odcięcie od wody, od lekarstw, od żywności) Izraelczycy odrzucili wszelkie międzynarodowe konwencje wojenne. Straty ludności cywilnej są wielokrotnie wyższe niż w tym ohydnym mordzie i rosną z dnia na dzień. Nie o tym będę jednak pisał. Co mnie zdumiewa (i powód ucieczki z domu i czytania prasy, oglądania telewizji) to niezrozumiała w jakikowiek sposób postawa wielu osób, które znam i cenię nawet: odmawianie pełnego człowieczeństwa ginącym Palestyńczykom. Był moment, gdy sam w momencie kompletnej utraty racjonalnego myślenia, zadałem w jednej z rozmów pytanie: w takim razie prosze mi powiedzieć ile dzieci palestyńskich winno być zabitych za jedno zamordowane dziecko żydowskie? Nie potrafiłem znaleźć jakichś wspólnych filarów tej samej etyki i tej samej moralności, która wydawało mi się jeszcze do wczoraj istniała. Więc musiałem zadać takie brutalne pytanie sądząc, że szok tego pytania ludzi obudzi z jakiegos koszmaru biblijnych zemst, odwetów, religijnych mordów. Pomyślałem, że może faktycznie cała Palestyna (więc i państwo izraelskie) to jakaś Przeklęta Ziemia szaleńczych dzieci Abrahama, którzy w imię tego samego Boga, zgodnie z moderczymi zapisami w tych starych księgach Tory, Koranu i Biblii muszą się wzajem mordować aż do ostatniego człowieka. Że Morze Czerwone ma właśnie tym być – czerwonym od krwi. Może i Homer by tej tragedii człowieczeństwa nie potrafił opisać? Może zrobili to lepiej właśnie Prorocy żydowscy i muzułmańscy i Ojcowie Kościoła Chrześcijaństwa? Dostawałem słowem obłędu. Uciekłem od tego wszystkiego do świata natury, nad mój kanał morski, na moje kamienie, pod moje zachodzące słońce w którego zamierających promieniach ukazał się nocny Księżyc. I miasto ludzi obok ale daleko, więc milczące od tych okrzyków zemst i pogromów. I w tej naturze, gdzie wszystko bezkrwawo codziennie umiera nocą – jest pewność, że dnia następnego odrodzi się znowu cudownym wschodem. Bo ta noc to nie smierć przecież, to tylko sen. Sen, w którym nawet koszmary odchodzą z nadejściem świtu. Ach, niechże ten świt nadejdzie już! A jak pieknie ta reinkarnacja świata wyglada – w zdjęciach poniżej.
O, how righteous we all are! Especially our governments, which pronounce urbi et orbi on our behalf of total outrage of yet another Intifada in the Gaza Strip: our full support for Israel, its people, and armed forces. Loud condemnation of the terrorist military organization, Hamas.
Let me have a different voice, dear democratic governments of the Western World. My governments, as I am a citizen of that democratic world. Which gives me the right to voice my opinion.
There is no excuse whatsoever and no words of horror can describe the events that happened during the bloody, murderous ride by Hamas on Israelites. I will not even try to convey my outrage and most of all – my profound sadness.
And this is where the similarities end. The words that follow below are very different from words most of you would expect from me. Which also means that you don’t know my writing as well as you might think. Or don’t know it at all.
One more caveat: anyone who might call me an anti-Semitic or Jew-hater is not even worth my response. There is hardly a group of people in the world, which I respect and admire more than Jews. Ancient people, Wanderers of the World since time immemorial. People, who were subjected to many pogroms in the last thousand-odd years. People, who during the 2 world war were condemned to die, to disappear from existence, to be annihilated. Yet – they survived.
But – another paradox – Jews and the state of Israel are not exactly the same. Modern state (any state) must be judged by its policy, its constitution, and its actions toward minorities, toward people of any ethnic origin, who legally live in that state. And the State of Israel fails very badly on this scale.
So, please brace yourself for my next sentence.
The moral responsibility for this brazen and terrorist action of the terrorist organization Hamas lies squarely at the feet of Israeli PM Benjamin Netanyahu and the apartheid system of the state of Israel.
The cause of Hamas’s existence is the huge injustice that happened to Palestine and Palestinians a long time ago, at the end of the 2 world war, which at that time was under the British Mandate. Not that the British bear sole responsibility for this injustice – no, the entire powerful Western World bears that responsibility.
The old Palestine, which existed for thousands of years, disappeared. New borders of many Arab countries were realigned, and old Empires (Ottomans) evaporated. Justly – especially in the wake of the horrible experience of the Holocaust and Shoah – the Jews were promised their own state. Old Palestine was a vast territory, there was ample space for both of these historical People to establish separate, own states. The goal still exists on … paper. In the UN.
The General Assembly some years ago gave Palestine an ‘observer state’ status. Of course, the shameless Security Council vetoed full membership rights. Let us not forget, that when the Jews established the state of Israel – the world called them ‘terrorists’. But things have changed since then. The entire region soon became one of the most important parts of the world for the competition of spheres of influence and control by Western Powers and the Soviet Union. In that ‘proxy war’ Israel naturally became an indispensable ally of the SA. With full support in arms and military technology. No matter what. Over time it became a nuclear power. Without much protest and condemnation of the Western World. A country that does not shy and did say many times that is ready to use it as a pre-emptive strike if necessary
Yes – it is a fully functioning democracy, a modern state. But not for all. Only for some. White South Afrikaners enjoyed freedom and rights, too. Just not Black ones.
What Israel has forced the Palestinians to endure (particularly since the 1967 War) is despicable. Indeed, Palestinians and most Arab states at the beginning did not recognize Israel as an independent state. But all of that started to change after the war of 1967 and definitely changed after 1978 (Camp David). Arab states recognized that Israel is not only very strong militarily – it recognize that in modern warfare just numbers do not mean that much anymore. And technologically Israel was epochs ahead of all, even huge Arab neighbors.
Unfortunately, what followed these wars, was a low but steady move to occupy huge swaths of land that did not belong to Israel. Stealing more and more land from occupied Palestinian territories and building there, on stolen land, new towns and farms for new Israelis emigrating to Israel from other countries, mainly from the Soviet Union and Russia. These were not some empty lands – these were parcels and farms that belonged to Palestinian farmers, they had their homes there, their livelihoods for generations past. I can never forget similar families of older Palestinians (many of the old families were Christians), who were earlier thrown out on the street from their old houses in Jerusalem. I met them in Surrey with their symbolic old rusted big keys – a key to their lost houses in Jerusalem. They cried when they were recanting their stories to me. It was heartbreaking. Israel refused to give them the right to return.
The entire tragic story of Palestine since the end of the 2 world war, is a story of two ancient People: one with the right and opportunity to establish their safe own state, and the other had that right taken away from them.
Yet, three mortal enemies saw that peace was paramount. That only lasting peace of equal states and equal People can bring peace to Israel. That some stolen territories have to be returned before any people in that vast Middle East can live in peace and security. These mortal enemies were brave heroes of their own people: Yitzhak Rabin, Shimon Peres of Israel, and Yasser Arafat of Palestine. None of them had clean hands themselves. Each one of them had indeed a lot of blood on it. All three were responsible for assassinations, unlawful killings, terrorist activities, and disregard for human rights. But all three knew that a solution needed to be found if any of these two Ancient People had a chance to coexist in peace. In 1994 Rabin, Peres, and Arafat got Nobel Peace Prizes for achieving what seemed to be impossible to many others. They had a vision beyond their own personalities and beliefs. Vision for their homelands, their people. The vision that embraced peace at last. Maybe not in their lifetime – but in the time of their children and grandchildren.
A year later Yitzhak Rabin was murdered for daring to dream of peace. His murderer was an ultra-orthodox Jewish xenophobe and terrorist Yigal Amir.
You see, there are always people everywhere, who become so poisoned with their patriotism, that they can’t stand the idea that others may have another patriotism for a different country, for different people. For these zealots, these people are mortal enemies that need to be annihilated, murdered murdered. These are the people of Hamas, people like that Jewish ultra-orthodox Amir. They are dangerous people, even more so if their ideas come from religious zealotry, such as Hamas and Yigal Amir. The rest of us just want to live without hunger and have decent jobs or plots of land to raise our own crops. And we are enemies of these people.
Hamas’s first enemies were Palestinians, who wouldn’t follow their path and hatred. Just as Amir’s first enemy was peace-building Rabin. But once you cross that Rubicon from decency to hatred and revenge – there is no return. Blood will follow you. Blood of your perceived enemies and eventually your own blood.
Hamas might have originally been born out of righteous anger and determination. You might not understand it being an Israeli, but it is the policies of Israel and certain politicians, who created Hamas. Of people like Benjamin Netanyahu. Xenophobe and opportunist, who would do anything to face his day in an Israeli court. And he will. Because blood will follow him.
If we all acted on our urges for revenge – there wouldn’t be that many of us left on this planet. Justice and revenge are not different sides of the same coin. They are totally different coins.
If you don’t force your own government, led by racist and probably a common criminal (like Trump in America), to stop the slaughter and extreme injustice you will lose your own soul, your own humanity. You likely will create dozens, if not hundreds little ‘hamases’ out of the same passion for revenge.
I have written here ( https://kanadyjskimonitor.blog/2023/07/28/dalhousie-university-in-halifax-an-overlooked-tourist-destination) once before about Dalhousie University. But it wasn’t until today that I really went for a long stroll through the sprawling campus of it. Immerse myself in its atmosphere, history, and future. And the vibrant feeling of youth among the throngs of young people laughing, running, walking. Some very serious in that almost funny seriousness of young age that is impertinent, arrogant, furious, determined. Others – worry-free. Glorious age. Hmm …. At times, I almost forgotten myself and felt like them for a moment. Not long enough to make a fool of myself, LOL. Age has its advantages that I always remember: aloofness and stiff upper lip. Like Lady Dowager Grantham from Dawnton Abbey – shrug your arms and march on.
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