Shadows and us sharing common sphere

Bogumił Pacak-Gamalski

My walks with John are changing, far from any routine. I like it because we have not become an odd pair of aging gentlemen. Far from it. Not that people would really notice since they can’t see John, of course. They would just look at me, perhaps with a shake of their heads. Which really wouldn’t bother me at all. Not out of my arrogance and dismissiveness of their opinion. Honestly not. People see what they want to see, hear what they want to hear and they do have a right to their opinions. God knows I have mine.

So I was walking on Canada Day with John in Halifax through spots we liked to visit together. Like the little square on Novalea, just before the Hydrostone district. And I started to write some stanzas about these walks with him. Later I went to the Waterfront. It was sunny day but with a heavy fog and mist covering the Channel. It really was coming right out of my unfinished poem.

The world of shadows

The shadows are everywhere:
the silhouette of your body,
          the taste of your lips,
          the gaze of your eyes,
          the touch of your arms.

On the corners of the streets,
on benches in the squares,
trails in parks, and in hills.
They are lurking behind trees,
passing us on the walkways. 

Every time a green car
of certain make that you drove
                             passes me by,
                             I stop
                             and follow it
                             with my stare:
do I see your shadow behind the wheel?

The world has become bi-dimensional:
real physical presence of shapes,
and shapes of shadows
mingling between us –
invisible to some,
real to others.

Our talks in the crowds
          of these shadows,
your invisible hand
reaches out to touch
                   my arm.
I can’t see your hand –
                  yet, I feel it
when it touches my skin.

I feel the other shadows,
when they pass me by
               on the streets.

Some walk painfully bearing
	      heavy bag of sorrow,
others are light, they float
	                        in the air
without care or foreboding.

We don’t know their stories, 
so, I just accept their behavior
as it is, without question.
They too have a right 
to be joyful, and your insistence
that the shadows should be sad
is just an arrogance
born of our ignorance.

Today I went to the beach to finish the poem. Well, I have no idea if I did really finished it. I might actually add later another section to it for the idea of the ‘shadows’ among us (you can read to it whatever you want but my personal perspective does not come from religious point of view, but I always promoted the idea that a poem belongs to the author only as long as it has not been read by any other person. The moment it finds another reader – the poet no longer has any control of it, it belongs to that reader). But for now it is what it is. There was no fog on the beach, au contraire – it was sunny. But the crushing waves created beautiful mist on the edges of the beach, just where it meets the ocean. I liked it.